I have a food problem.
It’s not really a secret, per se, but it’s something I’m kind of ashamed of.
I’m addicted to sugar. But I’m also
pretty sure positive it makes me moody, emotionally unwell, gives me headaches, and is keeping me overweight.
I think about food all the time. Specifically candy. More specifically, chocolate. For a while I felt like I was overcoming this issue. After eating paleo-ish for 3 months (about a year ago), I felt like I was almost rid of my obsession! Sadly, I feel as though it’s recently come back
full force half force (I’ll give myself some credit here. It’s not as bad as it was before we ate paleo for a little while. It’s just getting there. Sugar and I have become friends again, just not BFF’s like before).
Which is why I’m implementing a NO-CHOCOLATE 30 DAYS. Followed by an ONLY DARK CHOCOLATE 30 DAYS.
Let me backtrack. I’ve been exercising a lot. Well, maybe not a lot to everyone, but a lot for me. I’ve been going to group fitness classes for a week now (holy cow my core is so weak!), running 3-5 days a week for about 3 weeks, and swimming at least once a week since the end of May. That is a lot for me! ME! The girl who hates to cross train. ME! The girl who only runs. And runs slow. And you know how much weight I’ve lost this month?
See the problem?
My eating habits suck.
I’ll do great for the entire day.
And then at night, I’ll binge.
I’ll shove chocolate chips in my mouth like a little kid with a bucket of Halloween candy in front of them.
I’ll eat a bowl of cereal just because I “feel” hungry (as long as it has sugar in it).
I’ll dig through the cupboards until I find an old, forgotten granola bar.
I’ll just eat, to eat. And eat because I love sugar. And eat because my self control is awful.
So starting on Saturday (my birthday is on Friday and I’d really like to have my favorite iced coffee mixed with chocolate milk drink), NO CHOCOLATE FOR 30 DAYS.
Is it wrong to wait? I’m battling with the idea of just starting now. Should I “treat” myself on my birthday just to have one more day of emotional attachment to chocolate?
Why is giving up chocolate so hard for me?
Why is moderation so hard for me?
I’ve got the exercise. I’ve got the healthy meals. Now I just need to fix my snacking!